Internet - 1, Me - 0

So I've been toying with the idea of calling it quits here. And by "toying with" I mean actually decided. I just don't have the time and motivation to keep this blog going. You just *might* have noticed. I still have tons of posts in my head waiting to be shared. And they are mind-blowing, let me tell you. I would be infamous in the blogosphere if I only wrote them down. But alas, it was not to be. Count me among the many failed blogs out there and move on, if you haven't already. I won't take it down as it looks all pretty with the links and my shop advertisement and such, but I won't leave you hanging with the promise of my return. Maybe one day . . . but don't hold your breath. It's bad for you. Yes, I've succumbed to corny jokes. The shark is waiting for me to hop on, so I'll oblige. Have a nice life, and do think on me from time to time.
--The Happy Cheerio.

15 Books . . . and blurbs

So the Facebook Meme reads like this:

"RULES: Don't take too long to think about it. List 15 books you've read that will always stick with you. They should be the first 15 you can recall in no more than 15 minutes. Tag 15 friends, including me, because I'm interested in seeing what books my friends choose."

I posted mine, and then decided it would be a good blog post if I expanded and told ya a bit about each book and why I picked it. Notice the instructions say books that "will always stick with you" not the coolest books, or most literary books, or even favourite books. But books that for whatever reason, are part of who you are. The number 15 is a little artbitrary, I'll admit, but it does keep things nice and neat. Here we go . . .

1. A Tree Grows in Brooklyn - Betty Smith. This also happens to be my all-time favourite book. Why? Because I identify so much with it. Because, really, I grew up dirt poor in Brooklyn with one brother, a hard-working momma and an adorable alcoholic father. Well, you know it's a good book if you indentify with it even though your own life is nothing like that. I guess what I really appreciate about it is how it's an everygirl's childhood story. It really appeals to my nostalgic side (which is a really big side of me), detailing beautifully what it's like to wish, imagine, love, hurt, want, grow up . . . all that stuff. And I cry every time I read it. "Momma is somebody!" Oh, my heart hurts.

2. Boys Life - Robert McCammon (not to be confused with "This Boy's Life"--that movie with Leonardo DiCaprio--totally different). Actually I like this book for a lot of the same reasons I like A Tree Grows in Brooklyn. Completely different setting and plot, and yet--the nostalgia! The coming of age! Think "Stand By Me"but more developed and whimsical. The magic realism elements are fantastic. It's not what I would call literary, not quite beautiful writing, perhaps a little over-sentimental at times, but a real gem nonetheless.

3. Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows - J.K. Rowling. Yes, of course I mean the whole series, as you can't have one without the rest, but that would be breaking the rules so I picked the last one. Say what you will about Harry, I love him and I can't help it. It's one of the few bandwagons I joined right on time, before it was huge, before the movies were made, and I loved every single minute of it. Some of you may be wondering why Harry made the list while other, better written fantasy greats like Narnia and the Lord of the Rings did not. Well, I read those and enjoyed those too, but I would be a phoney if I put them here. I read LOTR after seeing the movies. I know, I'm awful. And I only read a few of the Narnia books as a kid and didn't finish the rest until a few months ago. Enough excuses. Harry is the bomb. Word2yourmother.

4. East of Eden - John Steinbeck. A classic for a reason. I love stories with lots of connected characters and family tensions. I love stories that make you ask moral/philosophical questions without it feeling forced or preachy. Timshel. Pure genius. Read it in grade 12 for school and then again a couple years ago. Just as good the second time.

5. Fall on Your Knees - Ann M. Macdonald. I wouldn't say it's one of my favourites, but it's certainly unforgettable. Tons of stuff happens in this book. Probably too much stuff. But it's compelling somehow, and leaves you with a bit of an ache when it's over. Only read it once, maybe I should read it again.

6. Life of Pi - Yann Martel. My favourite English professor of all time said this book bored her to tears, and yet, here it is on my list. Actually, I couldn't put it down. Go figure. The narrator is just so likable. The story is incredible and yet, it moves at a nice easy pace, which allows for reflection. I love the way Martel highlights the awe and holiness of each religion. Plus, I have a signed copy! It reads: "May turtles always float around your lifeboat. --Yann Martel."


Aaaand I've run out of steam. But rather than hold onto this post any longer, I shall release it and publish a second installment later. Hopefully sometime next week? No, really! And in the meantime, post some of your favourite books in the comments if you feel so inclined.

I have a new post coming

I know, you don't care. But I really do. It's in my drafts right now waiting to be finished and it's gonna be good. Happy Sunday!

More Window Shopping

Loving this crocheted headband. Super cute. From BrokenHallelujah.

Look: I'm Not Going Back to Work

Sound a little defensive? I often sound defensive or aggressive in my writing when I feel like I can't be that way in person. It's my way of venting.

On the docket for today is that little question, "When are you going back to work?" In Canada, we have the blessing of a full year maternity leave. Which is *great*, don't get me wrong. But I find with that kind of time off, people tend to assume that it's more than enough for any mom, and that any mom will return to work as soon as the last government check arrives on her doorstep. I mean, she's had a year, right? She must be dying to become a productive member of society again! Her baby must be weaned and eager for social interaction as well. So, when's the big day?

Well, sorry to disappoint, but that day, if it ever comes, is way way way in the future for me. I have a very hard time admitting this to just about anyone, even to fellow moms who profess that they wish they could do the same. In fact, sometimes they're the hardest ones to admit it to because I don't want to seem like I'm flaunting it (see comment 5 in the list below). It seems no matter who it is, they're just not comfortable with the idea. Don't believe me? Here are a couple of responses I've heard from people I've told I'm not going back:

"So, part-time then?"
"If child care's an issue I know so-and-so would probably take her."
"Yeah, it's nice if you can do that . . . for a while."
"Well, you could work______ instead of teach."
"I hate you." (Followed by an I'm-joking-but-maybe-not-really smile)

So, what's the bfd? (Pardon my abbreviation)

You know, not every mom who chooses to stay home is rich beyond her wildest dreams. Nor is she a traditional religious nutcase. Nor is she just plain lazy. She can be a normal, sane, educated and hard-working person, just like you. And wasn't it only a couple decades ago when this was the norm and women had to rationalize going to work?

Well, because I'm a defensive person, I'm going to give you my reasons to stay home and hopefully bust up some of those assumptions.

Why I'm Not Going Back to Work:

I don't have a job I could realistically go back to. Before I had my daughter, my official job was "Occasional Teacher." Apparently it's politically incorrect or something to say "Substitute Teacher" now, though "Supply Teacher" is a little more acceptable.

Anyway, being an O.T. for a school board means I'm on call every day, but I have no guarantee to work every day. It means that when I do get work, I get a phone call at 6am from an automated system offering me a job for that day from any school in a 60-km radius, and oh yeah, classes start anywhere from 7:30-9:00am.

Now, that was all fine while I was pregnant and racking up mat leave credits. Being a free agent was okay, if a little tiresome. But can you imagine trying to work out childcare with that? Unless they lived next door and were very flexible and understanding or maybe just decided to move in with us, I don't see it happening.

I don't have a job I want to go back to. Like I said, it was okay back then, and decent money and all that, but it's not what I had in mind in teacher's college. I don't have my own classroom, I don't plan lessons, I don't know the kids, and most times I know nothing about what I'm supposed to be teaching. That's because I can be assigned anything from woodworking to calculus to cosmetology to boys phys.ed. There are very few "teachable moments" or any "moments" at all in supply teaching, and when they do crop up, you often need a sense of humour to appreciate them. Why would I choose this as a career?

I don't want to look for a new job that I might find more fulfilling. The time to find a teaching job I would actually enjoy has passed for the time being. I know myself well enough to know that raising a daughter and balancing my first year as a high school English teacher would probably kill me. I am a procrastinating perfectionist when it comes to lesson planning and marking. I found this out during practice teaching. I love the teaching part, but the prep part was hard.

Now, if I'd been teaching for a few years already and had some materials and experience under my belt, I might be ready to go back in a little while, but for my first year? Way too stressful. Like, throw-up stressful. And when I'm stressed out I'm cranky and depressed and not "present" at home. This is unacceptable.

Financially, we've found a way to make it work. No, we're not ballin' it, but we have enough room to try it out for a while, hopefully for a long time. I know not everybody has that option and I'm sorry not everyone does. But I won't feel guilty or sheepish because I do. Or at least, I'm getting better at not feeling that way.

I want to stay home! I enjoy it. It's not always perfect and sometimes I'm ripping my hair out, but for the most part, I really like it. I love being with my daughter throughout the day, watching her play, taking her out, feeding her lunch, taking naps together. I also like having a little bit of time to sew my clips, promote my shop, read novels, bake something special, write occasionally, and plan dinner.

So, there you have my answer to that pesky question. Not right now and not for a while. I may pick up a few days here and there just to keep my name active on teaching lists because you never know and all that, but basically I've decided to become a rich, lazy nutcase and stay home. And that's my final answer.

August Randoms

What's new this month?

Well, the immediate news is that a few days ago I made these cookies and this morning I had 3, yes 3, of them for breakfast. I did it to myself because I drove my husband to the train and had a Walmart excursion all before eating anything, so when I got home the cookies were the first thing I saw and I knew then it was all over. And so good.

Prior to the cookie making, this past Saturday I celebrated my sister's bachelorette with her. She gets married in 2.5 weeks. It was a good time with pizza (that's always a good time), games, some naughty gifts, and then out to the club. Well, the club was pretty good for an old fogey like me. Yes, the ripe old age of 27 has me bidding goodbye to my youthful days. You know you might be too old for the club scene when you experience following:

* Everybody in the bachelorette party wears rub-on tattoos just for the fun of it, and you contemplate where to put yours so that it won't be visible in church the next morning.
* You know maybe 2% of the songs being played. (Although when I knew a song I sang and danced with the best of them.)
* You find the music deafening and keep silently apologizing to those tiny little hairs in your ears that are responsible for picking up sound. I'm sorry, little hairs! Please keep working after this!
* You are shocked--shocked! at the way some young people behave on the dance floor.
* The heels you stupidly decided to wear once-in-your-whole-5'11-life have you going out to the patio not to smoke, but just to sit down.
* When you're feeling a little foolish about being the oldest person in the club, you think, "Hey, at least I can blog about this when I get home!"

Now please don't think I'm a grump and I didn't enjoy myself. Truly, I did. And it was nice to have a girls' night out; I hadn't had one in forever. Plus there were free chocolate strawberries and champagne involved (bachelorette special). So, all in all, it was good.

Make that four cookies. Hide them from me. I have a bridesmaid dress to fit into.

Cutest Thing EVAR

Doesn't he just say, "Love me" with that little smile? Great job, ColtPixy!

How Do You Measure a Year? My Baby's One!

Okay, I've never seen Rent but everyone knows the song. Instead of measuring in coffee cups and so on, I suppose a new parent could measure in diapers, in loads of laundry, or in hours of sleep lost. Perhaps more positively, he or she could measure it in smiles, in kisses, in walks to the park, or in moments of sheer joy. But as the song goes, how about love?

All cheesiness aside (well okay, I can't promise all cheesiness), a baby's first year is quite something. For a while it felt like this day would never come (actually it's still two days away but I take my computer time when I can get it). I was holding my colicky baby (who screamed bloody murder if I tried to put her back in the stroller) and watching a toddler playing contentedly in the sand at the park and thinking, "Will she ever get there?" Of course, at the time, being a mom to a toddler seemed way easier. Oh, to be young and naive!

And yet now the year seems to have flown by. I sound so grandma-like but seriously, where did the time go? In many ways I couldn't be happier, of course. My girl is the cutest, smartest, most beautiful and charming kid that ever walked (yes, walked! I told you she was smart) this earth. I know every mom thinks that, but mine really is. I have loved watching her grow and develop, and I have loved building a relationship with her and as a family even more.

But of course there is some nostalgia for the time when she was nothing but a little ball of baby fat with a mohawk. My husband and I spent some time over the weekend watching home videos of her. We got the video camera when she was just shy of 3 months old--not a newborn anymore but still inmistakably a baby. We made sure we got some footage every month and on every special occasion.

In the beginning, we recorded a lot of her just lying in our arms or on the floor, with us trying to get her to laugh or sneeze or roll over or just "do something" for the camera. Sometimes she cooperated but most of the time she waited until we gave up and turned the camera off, after about 20 minutes. At the time we probably thought we'd edit all the "boring" parts out, but I'm so glad we didn't.

Man, you should have seen us as we watched those videos. Grinning like idiots for every uneventful minute of it. It wasn't uneventful for us, let me tell you. Every twitch--"See how uncoordinated she used to be?" Every look --"Wow, she recognized our faces even then!" Every coo -- "Her voice sounds the same but so different!" Every single little thing she did was mesmorizing. Why? Because we were watching our baby grow up. Shit, I'm getting teary just writing about it.

I know I complain sometimes (what parent doesn't?) but don't think for I second that I am not loving this. Being a mom is awesome, truly full of awe. I don't know how to convey it without resorting to cliches, and when that happens I have to think, hey, cliches come from somewhere. There is real truth to sayings like, "every moment is precious" and all that other sentimental stuff. I have been so magnificently blessed to have had a whole year of those moments, and I pray that I will have many, many more.

Happy birthday, my sweet baby girl.

Sorry for being totally lame

Yeah, I've been MIA for a while. I went on vacation, which was great, but so busy that when I got home I needed a vacation from my vacation. The following weekend I was also busy, getting ready to host a wedding shower for sister, and I would have written about that, except that it was a surprise, so I couldn't (It was a success! Yay!). And now I've had this week to recover, and still don't feel like doing much of anything.

Okay, except for maybe reading Twilight. Yes, I've succumbed with mixed feelings. I'm on the last book. It is somewhat of a disappointment, but interesting enough for me to want to read to the end. One day, when I'm feeling less lame and more like the go-getter I secretly am, I'll write a literary review of the series and compare it to various other series(es?) that seem to have captivated our youth these days. Right now, I'll just go with "Meh. It's okay."

And oh yeah, I go on vacation for another week at the end of this month too, so expect June to pretty much be a write-off. This is nothing new to me, as I've spent all previous Junes doing something with education.

Mine :)

I arranged a loverly trade with LibertyDoll Creations on Artfire and got this neato pouch in exchange for two of my clips:

I need something compact I can just throw in a diaper bag or big purse that still has my essentials. This is the winner! And I can attach my keys to it too. Perfect. Can't wait to get it!

'Tis Pretty

From Chantilly Lace, This bermudaful headbead appeals to my whimsical side. Doesn't it look like something a bride would wear for beach wedding or something?
P.S. I don't know if you noticed, but didja see that I learned how to link the fancy way? Didja didja didja? Me = techie geek in training.

Raising kids on television

I like to joke that I was raised on television. Not like, on television, but you know, television helped raise me. It's not so much that my sisters and I were plunked in front of the TV and left to fend for ourselves, but I just have so many fond memories of kids shows that I enjoyed.

Sure I liked books and crafts and playing outside, and I have fond memories of those things too, but I don't feel ashamed adding TV shows to my list of nostalgic memories. Getting up early and watching Hercules cartoons with my dad, watching Fred Penner after a bath (there's a pic in my baby book of me and my sister naked in front of the TV with Fred Penner singin' away). 80's kids are very pop-culture nostalgic so maybe that's part of it. Maybe children of the 80's were the first ones who had lots of kids' programming readily available, day and night?

Anyway, just as I have no shame adding TV shows to my list of fond memories, I have no shame getting Clara to watch and enjoy television. Yes, I've tried reading to her. All she wants to do is eat the book. Every time. But to see her giggle at the TV is just precious. Plus, I kind of like watching kid shows again. There are some good ones out there! I'd rather be caught watching a kid show than a reality show any day of the week.

Just some random thoughts. Feel free to chime in.

And now for something completely different. Some adorable lampwork beads from www.DerondaDesigns.artfire.com:

Oh, the joys of self-diagnosis on the interweb

Everyone knows you shouldn't diagnose yourself on the internet. But everyone does it anyway. Well, not everyone, but a lot of women I know have done it, and I am a chronic self-diagnoser. My husband, and a few other husbands I've come across, don't understand why a woman would needlessly freak herself out by googling her symptoms.
Well, I thought I might shed some light on the subject for those who don't get it.
Here's a typical scenario:

1. Woman develops a symptom, usually something a little out of the ordinary. Like, say, an odd twitch or pain in her arm. She doesn't remember hurting or over-working her arm at any time. So this mysterious symptom is unexplainawayable. She tries to ignore it for a bit, but if it gets worse, the need to know just what it might be grows stronger until it's almost overwhelming.

2. Woman goes through what she has heard or experienced to explain it away. She resists checking Google because she knows Google will tell her that she's going to die a painful death. So, she racks her brain for other sources of info. Family, friends, that Oprah episode last week. Does cancer start this way? A motor neuron disease? The problem is she only comes up with more questions, not answers.

3. Woman starts to get panicky, but since she has gone down this road before, she doesn't want to annoy her doctor or her significant other for something that's probably nothing. Unless it isn't. Her mind goes back to that Oprah episode where Dr. Oz emphasized the need for self-advocacy and quick action when something is wrong. Is this one of those times? Or is she being an idiot? Where will she find peace of mind? Where can she find information? She needs something anonymous, something that won't mock her. She needs the internet.

4. Finally, after a sleepless night, trying to forget about it, she decides she has to know the worst. She sneaks out of bed, goes downstairs, and flips open her laptop. She types in a variety of search words and clicks on the scariest results first. To rule them out of course.

5. After about 45 seconds she's convinced she has necrotic facitis and she's going to die in 48 hours or less. She spends about 5 minutes planning her funeral and imagining her last moments, and then attempts to calm down.

6. It takes a while, but eventually reason returns and often she won't even need to discuss it with anyone else. She reads the scary information again, this time more carefully, and realises she only has 1 of about 10 symptoms for the scary disease. And that one isn't even quite right. Then she remembers she was carrying her daughter around a lot more than usual yesterday and that's probably what it was. She sneaks upstairs and goes to bed, her husband and her doctor none the wiser, and goes to sleep. The end.

Now what's wrong with that? I--I mean she--didn't bother anyone. Solved my own--I mean her own problem. Is self-diagonosing really so bad? Should a woman have to do it in secret? Just sayin' is all.

On a completely different note, my artfire item of the day comes from http://YarnChick.artfire.com and isn't it adorable? I can't decide if I want it for Clara or myself:

Finally, Something Interesting from Science Class!

Check out this necklace made from a microscope slide! I didn't want to showcase jewelry items two posts in a row, but I couldn't resist this one. What a cool idea! The image is so me. It's like carrying a little bit of England around on your neck. It would match with everything, too! There are many styles available at this studio, as well as some pretty nice notebooks. Check out www.debvandetdesigns.artfire.com if you likey :)

Jewelry, Backyardigans, and Moving Day

We'll start backwards.

No, not moving blogs. This time it's a for-reals moving day. Tomorrow I help move my parents out of my childhood home of 16 years.

I'm a nostalgic kinda girl, so I'm surprised I'm not a little more upset. Maybe because their new townhouse is fraking awesome, but still. 16 years is a huge chunk of my life. I still remember that moving day. I did not want to leave our old house, and the only way my mom could convince me not to throw a fit was to get me a kitten. Trixie died almost two years ago now. And all of a sudden I'm a grown up and my parents are old. Er. Strange.

Now I watch Backyardigans with my daughter. Since she has started actually paying attention to TV, the only things that really interest her are when people (or animals) on TV sing and dance together. Being a mom, I appreciate shows that feature such things that aren't completely idiotic or obnoxious. Enter Backyardigans. Dang it, those songs are catchy. I love the rhymes. Take this for example:

Racing day, it's racing day.
Racing day, it's racing day.
It's not sausage-casing day.
Today's the day we race.

Brilliant, no? I sang it for Brandon and he laughed outloud. I've had it in my head for a while and I keep editing it to fit with what's happening in my life. Like, "Moving day, it's moving day . . ." you get the idea.

Finally, another artfire item of the day. This comes from CreativeHaven Jewelry:



It's a genuine African amethyst carved rose pendant. It goes for $89, which may seem expensive, but I'd rather spend the money here than at a chain jewelry store. Plus this item is one-of-a-kind. It'd be nice for somone with an amethyst birthstone. See more of her work at http://www.artfire.com/users/creativehaven.

Well that's all for now. Happy Friday!

The House of Mouse

Oh my, these are just too precious. Plus, they're handmade in the land of my ancesters: the Netherlands! There's a big variety of mice, including star wars mice, famous musicians mice, holiday mice, but my favourites are these three from the beloved J.K. Rowling series (yeah, those little books--ever heard of them?).





Check it out!
http://www.artfire.com/users/TheHouseofMouse

Item of the Day

Since I've suddenly become part of the handmade revolution (sounds so important, doesn't it?), I've become involved in the Artfire community. Artfire, like Etsy before it, is a hosting site for artisans who sell their wares online. I prefer Artfire, though I have no beef with Etsy. And since Artfire is the new kid on the block, it needs a little extra lovin'. That means each of its members is (or should be) working hard to promote not only their own shop, but the shops of other Artfire members in order to draw traffic to the site.

So in the spirit of that notion, I'd like to feature a new item/studio every other day on my blog. Ambitious, I know. We'll see how it works out. I hope to keep it varied, featuring a bunch of different artistic mediums, as well as featuring newbie and experienced artisans alike. I'm a newbie myself, so I think everyone deserves a chance.

Today I feature MichiganMud Clay Studio. She works with stamps and clay to create her stuff. Here is one of the things I was admiring in her shop. Cute ring at a great price! Nice and simple with that professional yet crafty look:

























Check out the rest of here items here: http://www.artfire.com/users/MichiganMud

Well that's it for today, folks. Remind me next time to tell you about the time when Clara drank air freshener and I called poison control (she's totally fine, just has interesting smelling poo).

Welcome to my new home!

Well hey there,

Glad you found me. So yeah, I moved and I even changed my blog name. Why? Reason number one: word2yourmother was already taken at blogspot. Reason number two: I'm 27. Who am I kidding? I'm not that edgy.

But why the Happy Cheerio? As I was contemplating a new blog name, I looked over at my 10-month-old daughter munching a cheerio and thought about how blessed I am, and then just typed it in. Much to my surprised delight, it wasn't taken! So here we are.

More posts to come. No, really.